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[15 May 2005|06:03pm]
[ mood | high bored ]

so dude, the last coupla days have sucked. no paige no anyone. guys we needa chill later. and paige... please talk to me. please.

i got more shit from bob. ive been snorting all weekend. crap the nosebleeds blow but the high feels so good. this is me without paige.. great.


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trying to forget everything that isnt you. [12 May 2005|08:34am]
[ mood | crappy ]

yeaaa only i could screw up stuff this bad. so bad.

went to that party last night. saw a couple of people i needed to see bought some weed and pills and then paige came. it was going okay too... it actually felt better than its been or whatever probably cuz i popped a couple before she showed and i was in like a bubble or somethin and then i screwed it up by taking two hits of someone elses joint and now im screwed.

paige.... im sorry. i am. like for real i really am. i love you... it was a one time thing. dont hate me for it. only im lying cuz im gonna do shit anyway... after she walked off i smoked a whole blunt by myself. when 'bob' is around again im gonna get somethin stronger... this isnt workin for me anymore. its just kinda normalness or whatever.

im such a loser.

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[11 May 2005|08:54am]
[ mood | crappy ]

so life sucks.

i never see paige. i never see jimmy. i never see craig. i never see ANY of my friends anymore and it sucks dude. like really... it blows. my life is all about work, smokin up and school.

i heard some grade 12 kid is having a house party tonite. im all for gettin bombed and goin to school with a hangover tomorrow cuz dude, its needed right now. plus the kid who sells me my weed is gettin me some other shit i really wanna try. itll get my mind off how crappy my relationship with paige is.

anyone else wanna come?


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[05 May 2005|09:14am]
so uh yeah dudes, i dont even know what to update about.

my fams being all weird these days. i dunno why. prolly cuz of paige. i dunno it was buggin me tho. between school and like, uh, everything else, i've been way stressed out. so i just go in my car and smoke a blunt whenever that happens to i can just relax.

saw paige at the park last night. it was okay. we need like couples therapy or some weird crap because things are pretty sucky with us right now. i want stuff to get better but im startin to wonder if its a lost cause.

jimmy, uh dude.. we needa chill later. play a bball game or somethin.

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[04 May 2005|08:34am]
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it.Collapse )
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[01 May 2005|09:39pm]
wow so its been like... forever since i updated.

yea i mostly been working. hung with paige when i got off my shift and it felt weird.. then i dunno, i went over to manny to see how she was doing since im worried as hell about her since me and paige got back together since she looked kinda down. then fuckin sharpe comes over like hes tough shit and picks a fight. wow he was way jealous or somethin.

i dunno, then i gave up on that cuz id rather spend time with paige anyway. i know she knows im sorry but things still seem kinda weird and forced. i know sh dont trust me and it sucks, but i cant do anything else... its weird when were alone, it just doesnt feel the same and i want that to change. i love my honeybee. we went out to dinner, it was good. even if the host didnt like me kissing her. or making out, whatever...

...yeah. im done for now.

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[27 Apr 2005|05:05pm]
[ mood | bored ]

im a way happy spinner right now. im sure everyone knos me and paige got back together. yea so im definitely happy about that. i really didnt think shed take me back cuz i really screwed up but she did and im glad. things still feel a little weird tho... she prolly isnt totally over everythin and i dont blame her. but still i really meant it when i said i was sorry. i want everythin to go back to normal

other than that life is pretty lame. been workin mostly, cuz havin money is a good thing. that and doin work for kwan because i dont really wanna fail her class. again. that would be retarded shit.

anyone up for hangin later? i needa get out and its nice out and stuff.


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intro or somethin. [24 Apr 2005|12:45am]
so marco nagged me to get one of these lj thingys. hes such a girl sometimes. i mean, yea, dudes my friend and all, but am i really gonna need an online thingy mabob to tell the world whats going on in my head? cuz lately, yea its pretty screwy.

im sure everyone knows me. cuz you know, im spinner. im friends with all the popular kids, i dated paige michalchuk for a long time, and im the drummer in downtown sasquatch. i love the squatch, even if we kinda suck with new songs lately. it doesnt matter cuz i love my drums and playin in a band with a bunch of my close friends is pretty sweeet.

im single, so ladies... yea. feel free to take a look. not that i wanted to be single, but i screwed up pretty bad with paige. sorta? i dunno, i didnt realize what i was doin was wrong or nothin, but it had to be for her to get so pissed and upset and actually break up with me. in the cafeteria. and it blows so much cuz i really miss her a lot.

yea i dunno what else to say in this thing. im pretty tired cuz i worked the longest shift ever today. so im gonna crash but ill be on aim. if ya wanna talk, my aim name is the lunacy spin. uh.. later.

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